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Distraction is the word of the decade.

Hundreds of television channels, shows that stream live on our computer screens, everyone over two with a mobile device, and marketing messages screaming at us from every direction. And it is driving us apart. We live alone, despite the fact that our spouses and children are in the house. We live in virtual worlds with hundreds of virtual friends that shoot happy pictures in our direction reminding us that we are anything but happy, but only when we take the time to think about it.

And that’s the point really. Taking the time to think about it.

We don’t. Instead, we react to opposing views on social media with declarations of disgust, but we don’t take the time to call our legislators. We post pretty pictures of our kids and cry ourselves to sleep because we don’t remember how to be human. And we think there is never enough. Never enough time, never enough money, never enough stuff. We forget to be gracious and grateful and to remember that simplicity is one of life’s biggest joys.

An expansive view of the night sky. Fresh pears from the tree in our backyard. The laughter of children. The comfort of uninterrupted sleep on a soft pillow. Fuzzy blankets, hot apple cider, and moonlight. Conversation with a friend over a cup of drip coffee.

These are what we sacrifice for the latest newscast, score update, and Facebook like.

I am tired. Tired of all the distraction. I long for the space in between, where there is no one to poke me, entice me, or leverage my pain point. I want to turn off the phone, and the noise, and the anxiety, and the worry that there is never enough. Because I know there is more than enough if only I take the time to be present.

My wish for you is that you take the time, too. Sit in the moonlight. Breathe. Experience that simple awe that Mother Earth provides.


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Fear of flying

Fear. I’ve never admitted it. People I’ve met over the years have even called me fearless, and I embraced that belief, thinking up all the times that I’d taken a step into the unknown and come out on top. But with the full moon this weekend calling me out on my BS, I had an epiphany. I’m scared of stuff. I’ve always been. While on the outside I look all calm and composed, there’s a shaking bundle of “no way” hiding just under the surface.

I look pretty successful and confident. So right now I’m coming out of the closet to say that it’s all a sham. Every single step I’ve ever taken has been weighed with incredible attention to the details until I had concluded that the risks were minimal. It’s easy to be fearless when there’s nothing to fear. But I want to do more than what’s safe. I want to fly.


It’s the other stuff that I’m coming clean about.

I’m afraid of being a bad mom. I do my homework and can tell you all the latest research about what works and what doesn’t. I plan playdates, make sure my kid does his homework and brushes his teeth at least once a day. But in the back of my mind I know that I could really screw this up because making sure your kid has playdates doesn’t insure that he’s going to be a good human. And what I think is that it’s up to me to make sure I give him the best chance possible, even when I don’t want to read before bedtime, or make sure he has clean clothes.

I’m afraid of being a bad wife. I love my husband but I know I make him crazy with my OCD. Sometimes we have nothing in common to talk about and I hate the way he still thinks farting is funny. Like many couples the romance often takes a backseat to parenting and that sucks and it’s really scary. And I don’t want to be a bad wife because I have a really good chance to live happily ever after here.

And I’m afraid that I’m never going to do what I was sent to earth to do, because sometimes I don’t even know what that is, except when I do. And when I do, I’m so busy not doing the things that I should to make it all happen. And that is so scary – all caps scary.

And fear keeps me stuck. It made me tell myself that it would be okay if I never wrote another word in my life, which is a huge lie. Because when I’m not writing I’m not breathing and when I’m not creating there’s a hole in my life big enough to swallow me whole. And writing is scary, but not writing is scarier.

And so I am here. And afraid. But I’m writing anyway. Because it’s not the finished product that matters, it’s the writing. I started a new story this weekend. The idea came to me in a dream, which sounds hokey, but is unbelievably true. I know it’s the universe saying, “Okay, now it’s time to get over the fear and do what you were meant to do. Don’t read another book about writing or talk to people about writing or buy a program to help or rent space for a studio – just take off and fly. You have nothing to fear.”

What I know is that fear gets me nowhere. It won’t help me raise a good human, or have a good marriage or put words on a page. So instead of pretending to be fearless, I’ll just stand up to my fear and shine a little light on the darkness. I’ll kiss my kid and my husband more often, and I’ll write. Today, and the day after that.


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MadonnaI am in Ohio, the place that I grew up, learned what family means, formed my core beliefs, and figured out that I was a square peg. I have always felt that somehow I didn’t fit. My strong will was always my vehicle for leading me out of one place and to another. That and my ability to know – from the depths of my soul – when the wind was about to change for me.

But in this place I am rediscovering a story that I have been reluctant to embrace. I do fit, perfectly, in this place and this family. It’s the story of a girl who had just the right parents, and just the right sisters born in just the right time and space to become me. I am the person I was destined to become.

My childhood and the church introduced me to the idea that there was something bigger than me and let me taste faith for the first time. This faith was steeped in ritual and mysticism that is core to Catholicism, and left an indelible mark on me.

My mother’s family is most responsible for this part of me. Her parents were salt-of-the-earth farmers who worked the land and never missed a Sunday mass. They prayed a lot with the help of leather-covered prayer books filled with pictures of saints they picked up at the funeral home when relatives died. And rosaries. Seems like all the women in the family were devoted to Mary, the mother of Jesus. They asked her for help in times of trouble, and there was always trouble. As I remember it, even the good times were marred by a sense of seriousness that comes from being faithful. There were topics that simply were not discussed, especially within earshot of children.

Without realizing it, these very Catholic women who played such an important role in my development introduced me to the divine feminine. With their prayers and gentle nudges to set my intentions before the Blessed Virgin for help, they guided me to understand the multi-dimensional presence of God.

When the faith so rooted in my very Catholic family failed me, I was destined to keep searching, seeking to understand this God who is both male and female and loves without limits.

My father’s family provided me with a very different set of tools for life. My grandfather was a wanderer and heard the beating of his own heart. Not one to conform, he lived a big life full of adventure, even after he married my grandmother when she was only twelve. She had all of her nine babies before she was 30. She accepted her situation with grace and became the mother I would like be. Sitting on her soft lap as a child, surrounded by the scent of her perfume and her warm embrace, I knew love in all its glory – no strings attached. My grandmother taught me non-judgement, showed me strength and courage, and helped me to understand the importance of caring for others.

My  grandfather was many things, but definitely not the sort of grandfather that you wanted to cuddle with. His unruly black hair was glossy and thick, and his skin was dark and weathered from spending time in the sun and in the elements. Most people thought he was a little crazy. I thought he was awesome. But I had the privilege of spending rainy afternoons sitting at his kitchen table with him, watercolor markers and a lot of white paper. He colored nature scenes mostly, and covered bridges. With broad strokes of green and brown he covered the entire paper with his pictures. I don’t remember my pictures at all. I think he wasn’t a great artist, but he didn’t care. We barely spoke. I’m not sure he knew how to talk to people under the age of 13. In fact, people over the age of 13 wouldn’t exactly call him a great communicator. Politically correctness was a foreign concept to him. If you asked him where he came from, he would say he was a gypsy, and I knew he was right.

I traveled down a few different roads in search of meaning and something I could embrace. What I found was me. I am a gypsy, wandering  the planet in search of something to believe in. My life is steeped in mysticism, ritual, and unconventional faith that we are all guided by a divine presence so much greater than anything we can imagine. And thanks to my grandfather, life is an adventure.

Yes, I am the perfect product of the people who have moved me, the places I’ve been and the spaces I’ve shared. I’m not a square peg at all, and this is as it should be.

Photo credit: © Tiberius Dinu | Dreamstime Stock Photos

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